I changed my mind

Yes because I am a fickle meaning "erratic changeableness"

I have changed my mind about this so called love. I thought about this thing and I deserve for someone to prove, profess and shout to the high mountains when they love me!!!!
I will not settle for a little bit of love. I need BIG love, lotta love,lots of love, not some half stepping.
I changed my mind, i'm not really concerned if I think he loves me he loves me not. I shouldn't be concerned I should know.

I changed my mind. I deserve all of someone, every inch of him, every ounce of him, two fickle people are not hott together.

What happened to good old fashion love, when the man was knocking on your door professing he can't live without you, or calling your phone saying he needs you and can't sleep without you?

well until I get that and only that, I will always change my mind.
Now I will sleep well tonight. Good Night all

CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!!!!!

Congrats to Justin and Megan, He proposed just minutes ago (of course I can't keep anything) I wish you two the best.

Smooches :)

Keep rolling or Upgrade?

so if you're in a relation/friend/ship and you're doing good and getting almost all you want and need, attention, love, hugs, attention, kisses, cuddling, respect and honesty but you want more like a title or a label, should you mention this and risk losing it all together? or if it aint broke don't mess with it?

Do Not Disturb

Have you ever had something so good, you cannot wait to get it again? Man have you ever just day dreamed about it all day long, longing for it. Wishing, hoping and praying you get home fast enough???

Lawd!!! i've been so deep in this lately, I cannot get enough of it. I mean I dread going to work, I dread opening my eyes to the sunshine in the morning, I hate to be interrupted, I get mad when i'm disturbed. Boy I can't wait to tonight to get it again.

ooh I didn't mention what it was.

I love SLEEP so much, I sleep like sleep going out of style. It is so good to me.
Do not disturb.

so what can you not get enough of????

If it weren't impossible i'd........

This is my writing paper, let me know what you think?

I Saw You
If it weren't impossible i'd time travel in to the future. To me time traveling is the coolest idea ever. I love the movies people have created like; Back to the future, the Butterfly Effect and my favorite is 'the time travelers wife'. My idea of time traveling would be a little different though. I would mostly look in the future and sometimes visit the past. I would travel to see if i've accomplished my current goals, finished projects and I would also travel in the future of my closest family and friends.

I would be the kind of time traveler that goes in a future mind trance. Physically looking at me it seems i'm day dreaming, but i'm really not there. When I come back to the current state I would give my peers ideas and suggestions without revealing my time traveling privelege.

Here's an example of the suggestions I'd give. I have a few close people to me that smoke cigarettes; if I see in the future that they have endured an illness resulting from smoking I would plead with them to discontinue the unhealthy habit, because of course i've seen their future.

Another suggestion I would make would be to a close friend or family member that is single and too picky in relationships and love. If I travel to the future and see this person old and lonely, I would encourage them to live a little and enjoy life more.

I would never share my privilege with anyone for the reason of people lining up at my door for their future details. It would be a secret gift given to me and I would use it for my own personal nosiness and to urge people to do what's right, right now, to love, today and to live life to the fullest, right now. I wouldn't call my self a psychic, I'd rather use the word prophet. Yeah, being a time traveling secret prophet sounds like what I would do if it weren't impossible.

The End

What do you do?

What do you do if you are in a relationship with the person you were sure was made for you, and as time goes on you realize you feel as empty and lonely as you did when you were single?

How do you fight for love?
When is it time to let go?

???????????

For one of my girls.

One Tequila........

Ugh!! I feel like crap, of course it was ma's official 50th yesterday and I had to have a shot with her of her fav. Jose. Ugh!!!!!

I still had to be a rockstar about it though, I made it to work. Headache and all.
Ever have those days where you know damn well you shouldn't be drinking on a tuesday night????

Nice Getaway????

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What do you guys think about this????

U know me always down for a getaway



Tajuana

Sweet Voice of Jordyn Singing To Me

la la la la la la means 'I Love You'
I know thats what she's singing

New Day

Ok so I feel different today, I got a good nights rest and I talked to my boo before I closed my eyes. (i'm smiling now)

Anyway, "I want to apologize to the lady in the BIG ASS YELLOW SCHOOL BUS. I only meant to get my point across I don't really know if you're a 'Bitch' I just felt you were one at that moment. I meant what I said, you need to pay more attention, but maybe you aren't a bitch"

Writing this makes me feel better even if she never sees this.


See I can be nice people
Smooches :)

V day

What are the single women suppose to do on valentine's day?

For those of us who don't have a promising valentine's day with the opposite sex, with dining and movies and cuddling and laughing and giggling and just a guaranteed fun time, what do we do on the love day?

I so do not want to be somewhere and people are all coupled up, so going to a club or lounge is out of the question for me. I was reading a magazine this morning and that was one of the three suggestions for single ladies on V day; club, a girls getaway or a sleep over. The getaway sounds good, but for me leaving my little one on such a sweet day going out of town is not the option.

The one that stuck in my mind was the sleepover. How does this sound? In our circle there are a few of us that are officially single, that does not include the new prego one, the one with the man that cooks for her and wipes the snow off her car,or the one that's married; because i'm hating on them right now, this includes the "Real" single ladies, we should get a nice hotel room, with a pool, wine, vodka, comedy movies and 'brownies' (you know what kind of brownies i'm talking about) flannel pajamas and fluffy house shoes and have fun. I just want the day to be fun with a lot of laughing and memories, not so much like 'waiting to exhale' we're too young for that.

What do you think??????

Shit on me day

So my day started off good, I woke up on time, clocked in to work on time, I wasn't sleepy, pregnancy test came back negative, I felt good. I had an appointment this afternoon, so I had to leave work early, I am such a procrastinator, I still had to stop and get gas though. I pull up in the gas station, I swear I had to look twice at the gas price, because it was sooo many people there you would've thought gas was .99 a gallon, well it wasn't.

Anyway, I'm still in a good mood, sitting there waiting on this lady to pump her gas and get the hell out of the way, she's doing all types of stuff in her car, of course right? anyway it felt like 10-15 minutes I waited, finally she pulls out and what happens next??????????????

A BIG ASS YELLOW SCHOOL BUS PULLS IN FRONT OF MY PUMP!!!!!!
Oh hell naw!!! i'm pissed now, I started getting a little hot. Seriously I felt so invisible. I pulled up a little closer, rolled down my window and everything just to make sure I was really sitting there looking like an asshole now. Well I really was.

So another car pulls out next to the bus, this asshole is the one who directed the school bus lady in my spot.I mean mugged him. I backed up to the other pump next to her, got out of my car and knocked on her bus window like I was the police. I said 'you are so rude, you saw me sitting there waiting on that spot, you are so rude, Bitch!!! you know I had to throw that in there. Bitch. And I walked inside and paid. Now i'm on 40, because I haven't had an altercation in such a while, I feel kinda rusty.

I'm pumping my gas and this little 7 eleven lady gets out!!! ( you know what I mean) and starts to put me in my place. she apologizes and says she didn't see me, now mind you I finally got a car wash so my white car is shining baby, you can't miss it. Anyway she apologized a million times, and she also said I need to take back calling her a 'Bitch'. What?????? oh hell no I won't. There are no take backs in war lady. I told the bitch, 'look I am in a hurry and I don't have time to sit at the gas station watching people pump their gas, it was my turn and you need to pay more attention next time. She eventually left feeling like she told me off. Yeah right!!!

The guy next to us didn't know what was about to happen, he was looking all scared he wasn't sure if I would call some of my crew or she would call hers. (you know what I mean) Anyway, I cooled off, I was now running late for my appointment, so I get on the phone and do the responsible thing and call and say i'm running late. All the while i'm missing phone calls, at first I wasn't sure my line was ringing b/c they had me on hold and their line kept making a beeping sound like a call waiting sound. WELL IT WAS MY LITTLE SISTER!!!!! DUN DUN DUN DUN!!! I didn't want to click over once I realized It was my line,then i'd lose my spot on the phone with them. so I texted 'yes?' meaning yes whats up I can't talk so i'm texting. She text back 'nevermind you didn't answer none of the four times i called so forget it'. I tried calling her back. No answer. ( i'm now shaking my head)

ONCE AGAIN SHIT ON ME!!!!!!

I swear thats twice the next person that rubs me the wrong way, it's not going to be pretty I just might need bail money.I was in such a good mood all day long, and when I got off work, BOOM!!!!! It's shit on me day. But guess what, I will stay my ass in the house tonight away from others because obviously i'm not attracting goodness. Needless to say, I missed my appointment anyway and the people never came back to the phone after holding on for over 10 minutes.

I need a bottle of riesling and cuddling anyway.

Happy Birthday Ma!!!

This is my ma's birthday weekend and she will be the BIG 50!!!!!! (WHOA!)on tuesday, so if you're up to it, let's get her wasted tonight and this weekend too!!!! Her drink is TEQUILA!!!!!

Ugh!!!

Today just does not feel like my day. I can't explain why, I don't even know why. I just hope it doesn't continue this way. Don't you hate these days?

Oh yeah maybe its from the tequila I had last night????

Ladies! Ladies! Ladies!

Why are we so different than our counterparts. Men!!!!
I asked a few guys this question and I was a little taken back from the answers I received and who I received them from. Its so messed up that when we find someone we are willing to wait for, play around with, be with or whatever. Or maybe even potential husband material; we find out we're not on the same page. Ladies we have to screen these guys in the DOOR. We all know I asked my boy toy could he live without a woman? and his ass said "if it wasn't for sex,yes" I can't get mad at another persons opinion, I guess I appreciate his honesty, but I know where that leaves me.....last if at all. I'm cool with that, I know where I stand now.

But I asked 5 other guys could they.... Live with out a woman? here are the responses and ages of these guys:

1. 32 yrs old, "hell naw!!!"
2. 26 yrs old, "Not at all!!!, but we can live without bullshit"
3. 26 yrs old, "Can't live with them and can't enjoy life without them"
4. 27 yrs old, "No cause I love ***** too much"
5. 26 yrs old, "yes men can live wihtout women"

I reluctantly guess I could appreciate the one's who said no they can't live without us, but what happened to them saying "hell no, I cannot live without a woman, I love everything about a woman and so on. Why don't men spill their hearts out to us anymore? Have all the tramps ruined our men ,for the good girls to suffer?

In my opinion, I honestly do not think man can live without woman. He might be ok for a while, but eventually he'll need us, miss us, crave us, yearn us and faithfully FIND US.

Holla if you hear me :)

Check out my writing assign. about influential ppl

Influential People
by: Jackie

When most of us think about re-evaluating our lives or regrouping ourselves or just simply starting over new, it's because we've reached a milestone birthday or we've had an epiphany. For me it was losing a dear loved one.

Last year, I loss a very close friend and coparent to our child, to a car accident, and as hard and painful as it is to talk about it, I find it easier to write about. I must accept it and recognize that I am growing from this tragedy. I won't say he hindered me in life, but I never imagined I would grow from his death. I have opened up more, Therefore I am more vulnerable, which may not be such a good thing. If anything good was to come out of this life changing event I now have the courage to pursue my passion; writing.

Eimen's passing away has opened my eyes to see the world is not really an impossible task. I feel less fearful and i'm ok with taking risks. I am pursuing writing more seriously than before. I have several journals, some since grade school; but I never took writing more serious than my little notebook with the lock and key until he suddenly died last spring. We always hear people say life's short, live fearlessly, take risks etc. but some of us don't quite digest those statements until something breaks us down to the core of our souls like his death has done to me. That's when we understand all we've heard through the years and that's when we re-grow and rebuild our lives. Life is short that's why you have to love each other and do what you love.

Eimen has always been an influential person to me and with his passing it opens my eyes and heart to realize as hard as it may be, life does go on and it's worth making it a good one. I guess I could be a famous writer one day and win honorable awards, but the fact that I even took the steps to pursue it this far is more far fetched than I imagined anyway. In life and in death we should honor people, but it's in death that we honor them the most because it's the time life fast forwards our lives to finding out who we really are.

What do you guys think?

Move your body like a snake

I am getting bored with life again, I need some excitement! I have to wait a couple weeks to start my second writing class but other than that, I need something else. So......... I was watching music videos plies and akon hypnotized and the girls were dancing and whinding their bellies so I was thinking.......... Maybe a belly dancing class???? yeah I have little pouch belly and i'm fine with that, it's not that bad. I think the belly dancing class will be fun and different. Hopefully I don't change this idea by the end of the week. I need EXCITEMENT!!!!! any ideas?

MEN

I just woke up from a daily nap and I also just talked to a guy friend on the phone and we got on the subject of guys getting on their girl's nerves and of course girl's getting on theirs. And I said "yeah well yall can't live without us anyway" and this went on for a little bit, and I asked him, "could guys really live without us?" He said. "yes if they didn't need us for sex. ?????????????

Of course a male would answer like that, and I always want honestly and this dude straight up tells me like it 'ti' is straight with no chaser. Fine! but seriously am I a little half asleep or was that just kinda well, Bogish????

He asked me what do I think his answer should be. I'm thinking damn whatever happened to a man needing a woman and can't living without his other half and his companion and just the sight of a woman would work. Maybe I am still half asleep thinking like that?

I have to know what you guys think??????

This is a huge flag waving in my face rapidly like a mac truck, I know. I know. I see it.

Fish :)

So my big sis had a dream about fish. We all know what that means. That means in about a month someone will find out they're Prego!!!!!!!The last fish dream I had, my bff was the mommy fish.

Good luck ladies, it's soooooooo not me.

Eat It!!!

Have you ever decided ok, i'm going to go home and cook a nice dinner for my friends and or family, get a nice recipe out of the cook book, get all the ingredients together and get down to it. Start cooking and getting into it, sipping a little white wine also. So I did this recently, i choose a recipe that looked delicious in the magazine and I decided to make it because I knew I could. It was pork chops with mexicorn and cornbread stuffing all in one pot the chops on top and man it looked good and smelled good too. Not to mention my clothes were drenched and dirty when I got done. Look i'm not that domestic. ok? Anyway, after I slaved in the kitchen I present my meal to my company of two and........

these assholes were not that enthused to eat it. WTF!!!
I swear the food looked just like the magazine I showed them before I made it. I am so glad my feelings don't hurt easily, it was funny and I made them eat it anyway. haha

Don't tell me i'm the only one this happens too?

WTF!!!!!

So I need to vent a little bit, I went to the doctor yesterday for something really simple. And the got damn medical assistant informed me.

I GAINED 15 POUNDS!!!!!!!! WTF!!!!!!

I thought when people go through rough patches in life you lose weight, why the hell am I any different? I seriously cannot believe this *****. Now what am I suppose to do? Yall know how I feel about exercising, i'm not sure yoga is gonna get this weight off of me, but i'll try and see. The thing is I don't eat a lot, I am very picky and I eat my veggies and fruits. Oh man I don't know what to do!!!!!
Oh yeah and I flew to walgreens doing like 80 to get those acai berry pills, hopefully this will work. Anything but exercising.

This will not consume me though, because when you see me you will still see me in my same jeans, because I can still fit them, I refuse to let them go, just when I broke em in.

I wish you enough

For many years now my 'mother-in-law' has been signing off to me " I wish you enough" ( its self explanatory) which brings me to my point. Lately some of us have been having it rough. I just want to remind you all that, you have support of friends and family and if that fails or is just not enough, don't hesitate to seek professional help. As family and Friends we want to see our loved ones happy and healthy but we can't always give each other the extensive help you deserve. We all have curve balls in life, but you have to be strong and willing to help yourself and have the desire to wanna be helped.

just putting in my two cents

Smooches
I wish you all enough

Toxic Friendships

To whom it may concern:

Friends are the people you can go to get away from family, not in a bad way, but we choose friends because we can relate to them. We relate, support and eventually love them. But there can come a time when you can no longer relate to one another and thats when it's time to let it go. It does not matter how long you've known them or how much they've been there for you in your time of need. When you've out grown a pair of pants throw them out, stop trying to make them fit. They fit in High School but you are now a grown woman, it's time for a better fit. I hope this discreetly helped you.

New Beginning

So last night I had a dream about a baby boy. Oh he was so cute, he had long brown hair, and blue eyes and light skin. He was adorable. I'm not sure who's child it was but all the women were really into this baby; smiling and laughing and cooing.

So I looked it up; dreams about babies. It said it could be a sign of a new beginning. I am so happy, maybe this was God's way of saying to me. Look you've worried enough, hurt enough, and pretended enough, it's time for a new beginning. Well I sure hope it is. Maybe it's my wish coming true?

Embarrassing Kid

Kids are sooo freaking embarrassing. So this weekend my guy friend was over and saturday night we were on the couch just hanging out the three of us( including Amarian) and i had my legs folded on the couch and you could see my skin and I'm rather hairy. But let me back up two weeks, My son and my smart mouth niece were laughing and talking about me because I don't shave my legs in the winter. Why should I, I need to keep warm. Anyway since they thought that was so funny knowing me I had to give them more to laugh at, so I showed them my arm pits and I swear usually I shave bald but I just haven't had time, Its like a peach fuzz. so they were going crazy laughing at me. And this is of course coming from two kids that aren't old enough to have any hair anywhere other than their heads now. so fast forward to saturday. My friend was laughing at my legs because of the hair and my son decides to tell him about the day I showed them my arm pits, even though I tried twice to stop him by changing the subject, he was so persistent on telling this story of him seeing my hairy arm pits with a white thing hanging from it. Which is a total lie. He's trying to say I had clumped up deordorant under there. Which is SICK!!!! if anyone knows my child, he is a joker and will make things up quickly. I was a little embarrassed. This friend of mine, i mean we're kinda seeing each other and now he probably thinks i'm some sick hairy girl with deordorant stuck under my pits! I could not believe this kid. I know my friend will never let this one go. Ever
Kids say the darnest things at the wrong time.

What about yours?

Ok ok try this!!!!!

For all you who are in a relationship or those of you who have access to a man on a regular basis. I just red this article and it said having sex very often helps ward off diseases (Cancer), makes us slimmer, happier and live longer. Wow! ok ok so here's the test so I can live through you gals. Can you see yourself having sex every day for 30 days straight and if you do let us know if you feel any diffent on the last day. ?????

Damn I have a headache now

What do you do, how do you? who do you, where do you start?

We all may have many friends, some whom we confide our deepest secrets with, some whom we kick it with, some whom we talk on the phone most of the time, and some whom we spend most of our time. We have friends for different seasons and reasons. I have many girls and (sisters) with whom I share things with also. But I had a person. Everyone has a person. I had a person I could call and tell shit to, and vent with and get support, not that I don't have that now, but i had a person who made me cry and also stopped me from crying. I had a person. Damn I have such a headache, because while i was sleep I had this epiphany, I no longer have a person. And i'm not taking love away from any of my friends either. I had a person who was sure to answer my calls, sure to help me when I would fall, a person who I could call at 4:30am because i just had at the worst nightmare, a person sure to hug me even though we might've screamed and yelled at one another all night long. I lost my person. I'm not sure how many we get a lifetime, but I sure as hell hope I can be blessed with another one. ok i'm going to take tylenol.

Do you have a person?

Just when i say something good

Of course just as I speak so highly of this little individual. He acts up, he has truly been a test to me all damn day. I don't really do spankings, but man o man......

My Greatest Gift

I have always thought of him as my greatest gift ever. I have almost always been glad I have him (after the blues). There is really a higher power up there who places people together and places each of us in the right family. My greatest gift is Amarian Jakobi. I always thanked Eimen for him and on his homegoing program, I thanked him again for the best thing that has ever happened to me. When you bring a child home from the hospital even if you do have your family there to help, as a new mother you can still be lost and overwhelmed. I will admit I was overwhelmed but I wasn't lost. He made motherhood so doable. I'm scared to have another child because i'm scared my next child could be the total opposite. When we raise kids we mold them how we want them and how we see fit. He is seven years old and yes he has chores, empties the trash, takes out the trash, brushes the snow off my car. I also teach him to respect people and people's feelings and to also have compassion for folks. He might not ALWAYS obey, but he tries really hard. I'm not sure if anyone else is luckier than me to have such a great gift, I sure hope you're lucky enough to have something close:)

He's looking over my should smiling.

Make a wish

Its not that often in real life we get that chance to make a wish and it actually come true. There are soo many movies that provide that opportunity to children and funny comedians and people who are destined to change their lives on film. Than why can't we make a wish in real life and expect it to come true? Why can't we make wishes and help one another make them reality? I wonder will it work. I'm not trying to take anything away from powerful prayer and the higher power we all believe in. I'm just speaking of good ol closing your eyes and making a wish.

Now, close your eyes and make a wish!!

Share it!

I am soo lazy

I have been saying over and over I am going to workout more, walk on a daily basis and eat better. Even before it was 10 degrees outside, I haven't walked a mile yet. I tried working out with a friend and that didn't go to well, I worked out twice with her and I got sick the third day and I haven't been well since, its been over a month now.(haha) I'm going to admit it. "I hate exercising" I can't commit to it. I don't know how i'm going to keep this hourglass figure well into my thirties without a faster metabolism and a little toning, but I can't work out. There has got to be another way. It's like torture to me. My body starts hurting, my face gets all red, I get tired and just plain ol annoyed with it.

I do think I eat OK. I'm not the healthiest eater but i'm not the worse either. I eat my veggies and my fruits and a little figi water here and there, but I absolutely can not live without my Pepsi. It's my drug of choice.

So this bright idea popped in my head today after I woke up from my daily nap. Yoga. I went on demand and watched an 18 min. session of yoga and I think I can do that. It doesn't look too strenuous and I should feel better afterwards.

Ok i'm not that lazy I did do the yoga and I Loved it!!! this could be my new thing, if I stick with it. Of course its yoga for beginners and it was a little bit of weirdness like turning upside down with my legs stretched back, I probably could use that elsewhere. But getting back on subject, I think i found an workout for the body thats not to manly.
I'm a girly girl, I can't be getting all sweaty :)

Happy Birthday Sheena B

I might be late, but you're still important to me. Happy Birthday Sheenie weenie

Man's Best Friend

So let's distinguish the difference between a man and just a boy. A man is one who provides for his family, supports his family, is compassionate, caring and attentive to others. A man is a male who takes care of business and leads the pack. A boy is everything a Man is not.

Anyway, knowing what a Man really is, who really is his best friend? like the old saying, is it his dog? It can't be because he can only talk to the dog and the dog can't necessarily respond, he can't have a few beers with the dog, he can't cuddle with the dog, he can't yell and scream at the football game with the dog and the dog really understands why he's spasing out, and if he's normal he can't make love to the dog and hug and kiss like he would a woman.

So why is woman not a man's best friend? Ok so you say he has his boys, the one's he's known since grade school, the one's he's told all his secrets to, and he also has his guys to go out with, work with and relate to, but don't they eventually get sick of the guys? I'm sure they get sick of women to but a woman is someone you want to grow with, create with, build with. I want to believe my man's best friend is me. Guys see things totally different though. I'm going to ask any guy I come in contact with tomorrow and the rest of the week, because I want to know who truly is a man's best friend, from a man and why?

Like who like you

Huh??? This is what some older people believe, like who like you and you'll eventually like them. Is that natural? Or is it more like a contract and a stability issue? I think I could actually do that, If there was a honest guy I clicked with and he had a good job and we got along good. I can see myself marrying him for stability and that oh so important man, woman and children in one house foundation. Of course we'd have to be friends first, I would never bring a total stranger near my child or my family. We'd be friends both with the same morals and values and I don't think there is anything wrong with that??????

Now you want me

Have you ever noticed when you're single and lonely and just about to lose your mind, thats the time you can't find a man and a man can't find you? Some of us sit up late at night reading how to books, the bible, relationship books, astrololgy books etc. (Not necessarily me) Dining alone or with the girls, or just simply ordering take out, losing weight, gaining weight. Just lonely and feeling a little bit less loved.

BUT......... when you stop thinking about it and just live life without a better half someone finally finds you, you find each other? How about when you finally get in a nice comfortable healthy relationship and your crush finally notices you. Life is truly crazy!!

That brings me to this point. Why do we want what we can't have? its funny to me when i wear my ring guys approach me more and they actually see the ring. They want what they know they can't have, what is it, do they want to see if they're worth me jeopardizing my good relationship for a hot fling with a sexxy stranger? I also wonder are the guys and women who approach married people better off in life? they must have it all together to approach a 'married' woman and think i'd go for anything less than a stable man. I was just wondering

Same Dream

So in my dream he hugged me and turned and walked away. He walked away after he smelled so good,looked even better and held me so strong. He turned and left me, I watched him walk away, I reached out to touch or grab him, I couldn't. He wouldn't let me. He's not completely out of sight yet. My eyes are fixed on him. This feeling is all too familiar maybe I should turn and walk away also?

Is it really that complicated???

Really??? I think people make things more complicated than they have to be. Whats gonna be is gonna be just that. Whats not gonna be is not going to be either. I had the weirdest dream today.... I dreamt I had the most amazing date ever, I was smiling and laughing and really enjoying myself. It was the new year and everything started off just right and ended just right also. I got the kiss at the end of the night and I got home before the crack of dawn (thats my old fashion side) I couldn't name one flaw in this dream, it was too perfect. It felt too perfect to be real actually. I'm sure if this was to happen in real life the perfectness wouldn't be as amazing. I still have goosebumps from the good night kiss. The butterflies in my chest and stomach. Oops!!!! it was just a dream.

Good Night :)

Eyes like that

So i'm listening to the new Mary j. Blige Cd, sipping a bud light, and I just came from seeing the movie 'it's complicated' which was very good. And it has me thinkng about some things. Here is what is on my mind.

What is that feeling when a man looks at you with those eyes? Not the sexy, sensual, 'i want sex eyes'. You know those eyes. Not because or if he has colored eyes. Those eyes. You know when your man, the one who says he loves you and adores you, is standing on the other side of the room admiring you, looking at you, peeping you, smiling because he's looking at you. What is that feeling you get when you notice it? I can't put my finger on the feeling it's called when you discover it. The feeling you get when you look back at him and the little girl comes out of you and all you can do is smile, its like a movie. Your head turns to the side a little bit and nobody else is in the room but the two of you. what is that feeling called?