New Leaf

Today was my official day back in the routine of normal like, reality has come back and in full effect. I went to bed late after 1am watching the Housewives of Atlanta, then kami woke up at 5 to eat, then i had to get up at 6:45a, and had to be to orientation at 8. I made it!!! and on time. I'm so proud of myself I never make it on time anywhere.

Of course I couldn't keep my eyes open listening to this guy talk about....shit I forgot now, I didn't even know what he was talking about then. I had to drink me some coffee to keep my eyelids open. Our chairs were so close I had no room to stretch or nothing and to make matters more awkward my stomach was growling like a wild lion in the jungle, I was so embarrassed, I kept moving and sighing. I know the girls next to me heard my belly. I couldn't wait til lunch. Anyway I made it and i'm ready for reality again, bye bye vacation.

The surprise party was great. Once again I enjoyed myself and I think everyone else did too. The people that were there last night have not been together like that in a long time, it really felt like we were little kids again, and I say little kids because to all of the mamas that were there last night and even the daddy we are all still kids just older with our own kids now.

Throwing a surprise party is very challenging, but with a little lieing and sneaking around we got the job done. Everyone was satisfied, the food was great, the liquor went from mild to high core, i stuck with the mild liquor. A little verdi and a sip of hennessey. Somebody had to be sober. My cousin was pimping my sister, giving everyone lap dances, my other cuz was also a male dancer and everyone else including me were the audience egging them on. All good fun. And *Angelina* and *Brad* actually came and showed their faces. Well gotta go

Smooches

Surprise!!!!

So in a couple of hours we will be surprising my Mom, Brenda, Dwayne and Ann with a birthday party. I can't wait this is gonna be so fun. They don't suspect anything. Ok we'll see how this goes ttyl

Not Anymore

The thing i've come to turns with is i'm a pushover. I'm sure I was kind of one since the day Amarian was born, and I especially became one the day his father passed away. Thats been almost two years now and its getting out of control. Ok yeah so I might be the last one to notice it when my son sarcastically talks back in intelligent turns negotiating a whacking, and yeah i might be the last one to realize I put him on punishment and now he's still playing the game and i'm ok with it, and i also might be the last one to realize he just plays me, Period.

I'm not crazy I notice these things, I tell him all the time "you can't out slick a can of oil" "I'm smarter than you" and I really am. For all who have told me repeatedly i'm letting him get away with too much, I NOTICE. Actually i've been noticed but with his father passing I wasn't sure how to discipline him, if I should, and just why should I? he's a growing boy going through kid changes.

Thats all changed now, i'm fed up. I've had enough of the stomping off, slamming doors, huffing and puffing, negotiating, the not listening all thee above. I'm putting my foot down and i'm discipling him, and if that means punishment, grounding whatever you wanna call it, spanking, shouting WHATEVER i'm regaining my control today. I am not raising a menace.

Another thing about me is i'm not really the whooping type of mama. I will scream and yell for hours, 'stop doing that' sit down' be quiet' 'thats the last time i'm saying it' ok you're at strike 2 1/2 already' Its like a broken record all day long. He really is a good kid, he makes good grades and he is very respectful most of the time. I love that boy. But screw all that he's suppose to do that. It will be my goal this year to tell Amarian once to do something and he does it with no problems. I will achieve this. Just watch. Oh and if you notice i'm still on the old bandwagon of pushover, don't worry it'll take some time, i'll get there.

Boot

I'm thinking and really knowing that me getting a boot on my car is a test from God. I think he's trying to see if i've learned how to have faith in him. I have. At first I got so mad at the dick that put the boot on my car, I wanted to ram the boot up his *** and dump his body in lake michigan. Well I still do want to, but I'm learning that keeping faith and not getting depressed, things will turn out just fine. Its ok to get angry but its not okay to stay angry. I'm getting that ugly boot off today and i'm happy.

Tata for now :)

The little people

I just have to express my love for the little people in my life. I will start with my niece Jadyn; this girl honestly thinks I am her girl friend, she mimicks me so much I have to edit my actions and the words I use (i try) i love that little girl she is beautiful both inside and out. My other niece Kiya is so grown now I honestly don't know how to talk to her play with her etc.it'll get simplier with time. I love her to death she is my first niece, she's smart and truly a cutie. My jojo.look out baby! She started off liking me then she didnt, now she's so sweet on me baby i'm rotten. Cute as a button. Cry enough to fill an ocean. My kami. We all know she's my angel NOW; i hold that baby all day I could just eat her up. Save the best for last; Mr. Amarian. My homie. My friend. My little brother from another lifetime. My light when its dark (literally) My heart. I love them all and I just felt the need to express it tonight. Plus I just had some sweet red wine. Ok tootles

Oh Stella

Ok i'm late with this, Stella went on her date the other day. He picked her up; He held doors, pulled out the chair like a gentlemen and their conversation was great. They went to a really romantic restaurant; they had a ball. After dinner they planned on going bowling and also meet up with some friends. The date was going nicely. WITH!!!!! A slight curve ball: they get back in his car and he turns on the radio, and you would think he would be playing some r&b or maybe even hip hop. Nope, He turned on some straight up rap, thats not the bad part, the bad part were the lyrics, wanna hear it? here it goes.

"I ONLY WANT HIM FOR HIS DINGA LING, DINGA LING" dinga ling? Seriously? on a first date? who does that?

Stella is still young but she was a little uneasy with this song, he was jamming to. Oh and he also had to make a stop before heading to the bowling alley. almost 40 minutes away. They pull up in front of a house in no mans land, they get out, all along he was taking her to sit in a bedroom with some unknown guys to listen to him rap on the mic. HUH? YES

Stella was so nervous and bummed out she clutched her purse a little tighter and got the hell outta there. A fake call to a mommy saying the baby is crying always does the trick :)

Stella's on her date

Yeah I have a GPS on stella; she's currently on her date, hopefully it goes well. I really want to go to a wedding this year. lol

Maybe our friend *Angelina* will get married this year, I mean her and K been together long enough. lmao

growing up

Life can be so exhausting. I am beat but i have to force myself to go to sleep. Ive been thinking lately how I handle altercations and how I used to. I used to raise the roof when I got mad i used to go into a kind of rage. But now maybe because im more mature I try to keep the peace and talk it out first. I must admit I sometimes miss that firecracker that was in me. I loved the intimidation :) living and learning.

Stella got a date!!!!!

And she better not be late, so stella snagged her a date for tomorrow night. And he actually is a foreigner. lmao!!! and super cute. Now she stressing over what to wear and where to go. Where should she go for a first date? I was thinking a nice restaurant and back to his place. Syke just kidding!!!! Any ideas? time is ticking

Swinging

A friend of mine got a call the other day from a ex-boyfriend, they talk periodically so it wasn't like a total surprise he called. Anyway he called this time to say hey how you doing and would you like to go to a swingers club? Her mouth hit the ground, she couldn't believe this mofo had the nerve to ask her that, they haven't been a couple in years and the last she heard he was involved and so is she, and what makes him think he can just call her up and ask a question like that, what do men be thinking? why would he think it is ok to ask her to go to a swingers club with him? I mean he hasnt been inimate with her in years. All i can say is men.....

Stella need to get her groove back

So I have come in contact with a few stella's lately, but one in particular really needs to get her groove back. (No names) girl you know who you are. Its time for you to get out and live a little, we are approaching 30 and who wants to spend their life alone? Get out and meet some MEN!!! Leave the past in the past, drop that zero out of your mind, focus on something new; and for those of us who have a man already it's time for us to revamp ourselves, cut our hair, color it, do something different. I'm thinking about matchmaking. Yeah i'm thinking about finding some nice guys for *stella* and setting her up on dates, whats the worse that could happen? Bad breath, yellow teeth, NO teeth? she could just politely get up and leave.


Any ideas?

Still Sensitive

I just had to say this, I love that pampers 'silent night' commercial. I may be corny but that is a lovely commercial and I sing it to Kami while she's sleep and she actually smiles. Amarian would probably wake up and laugh at me if i sang it to him. lol

FML

I have waited all day long for 9pm to arrive, so I can watch Housewives of Atlanta, I made sure the kids were quiet and they are actually sleep (wow) I got my bed and pillow all comfy got my blanket and ready to watch the drama unfold. To turn to the channel and what happens?


ONE MOMENT PLEASE, THIS CHANNEL SHOULD BE AVAILABLE SHORTLY!!!! SHORTLY? I NEED THIS CHANNEL TO WORK NOW!!! SHORTLY HAS NOW BEEN 35 MINUTES, I CALLED COMCAST AND NOTHING WORKED, I HAVE TO WAIT TIL WEDNESDAY TO WATCH A SHOW I'VE BEEN WAITING ALL DAY FOR.
FML. NOW WHAT DO I WATCH? MAYBE THE OWN CHANNEL A STORY ABOUT JAYZ. BLAH!!

Happy Birthday Kim!!!

I'M SCREAMING HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY FRIEND KIM, SHE IS ? YEARS OLD TODAY. LOL
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AND MANY MANY MORE.

LOVE YOU

New Season

So recently I experienced unloyalty at its best. Betrayal, dishonesty, and just plain ol' phonyness (yeah i made that up), it still amazes me how people can be friends and just one day turn on you, someone I thought was a true friend who has been there for me through a lot of different angles in my life has joined the phony band wagon, it bothered me for a quick second then I got over it. I came in this world alone so why would I be attached to some ungenuine scank??

I'm turning over a new leaf i'm not holding back, for some reason I don't move as fast as I used to but i'm swifter. I quit my job( it wasn't part of my new leaf) I dumped a *friend* (screw her), I ignore unncecessary drama, I don't react to things that don't effect my life. And as the days go on i'll have more changes. I'm ready for anything that comes my way now. Let's go