"Too Soon"

The other day I heard something that kinda stung me for a minute until I decided it wasn't worth holding on to all day. A person I am familiar with but do not know personally and do not care to know made the comment, that she heard I was pregnant and don't it seem 'too soon'?

It kinda stung me at first and I put it in the back of my mind until It made itself right back in my mind full force, here is my take on this comment. I do not have to prove my love for Eimen and anyone else by holding back in my life, would it have made folks feel better had I waited til my son was older and I was a lonely, depressed, bitter and scared woman? By me waiting years to move on does that prove I loved him more? how about I had the help and support I soo needed to help me grieve and move on with my life, I think about Eimen every single day, I have millions of pictures, memories and the greatest gift of all a son by him. I will never forget him, there is nothing I can do to bring him back, I can either sit in a daze and stay on the date he left this earth or I can grieve, mourn, cry, be depressed, hit rock bottom and eventually get back up and hope and pray he's in a better place and move on. I chose to do the latter. I don't have to prove my love to anyone by staying alone for a certain amount of time especially not to someone i've never even had a conversation with, a no talented hairdresser, thats also used as a punching bag. The weird thing about the whole situation is this person doesn't even know me, does not know Eimen and I relationship or our history, she might think she knows me but she really doesn't. I think she needs to stick with doing hair and keep my name and my business out of her mouth because like I said she really doesn't know me and she never will.

Happy Belated Birthday Quia

Well I told you Happy Birthday on the actual day April 23, but I thought i'd say it again since you might not remember. You are the BIG 30 now. I'm just saying.

Love Ya

Can you believe this S***

As if I didn't hate pregnancy enough already, last week I had at the unfavorable pleasure of being hospitalized with severe dehydration. Yeah the doctor diagnosed me with some big name illness Hyperemesis Gravidarium, it sounds like "ugh get away from her" but its severe pregnancy nausea and vomitting. I told you I hate change and apparently my body does too. I swear this had better be the second cutest and most well behaved baby ever for me to go through all this craziness, this is not for me. Atleast for the last two days i've felt better though, I actually got up yesterday and washed the dishes. Yea!!! My mom loved me for it. Anyway I hope it stays this way.

Another 'Can you believe this s***' ? moment. So my job the people I spend most of my days with, the folks I have to look at in the morning and would rather not, and also the ones who dictate eight hours of my life. Had the nerve to tell me if I called in to work one more time I would be written up, WTF? How the hell can someone else limit my sickness and I can't even control when i'll be sick or not. It sucks working for a company rather than yourself because It feels like betrayal. I mean these people notice my face when i'm sick, see me running to the bathroom and see me with my head down on a table and you have the nerve to threaten me? Well I have something for this, its called discrimination and I know they don't want that. I will read up on it later but pregnancy discrimination is still around and a usable law and I will use it if I have to. Bitches!!!

Well I feel better now, maybe i'll go take a nap
Smooches

Just had to get this off my chest

I got a little pissed today, because I told another "friend" of mine that I am with child and he questioned my decision and actually had a little 'tude'.
Now i'm confused, do these guys think I was their stand by girl, just in case they wanted me? I didn't want any of them in that way, when I say we're just friends thats what I mean, not maybe one day, therefore if any of them were to get married, have babies or move away I would be alright with that, because we are just friends. These guys have absolutely lost their minds, I am nobody's stand by girl, either you make it clear that we're dating, together or potential with my understanding and agreement, or I move on and live my life like I damn well did.

I guess you don't miss a good thing until it is gone, walking away in the sunset with another man and not looking back at their asses. I have had enough of these stupid guys that have their eyes on you, but too pussy to say anything and when you move on, its all of a sudden 'I loved you' or 'I'm mad at you for doing this' well you know what.. f*** you all and move on because I did.

Psss.... I feel better now.
Smooches

this is soo funny to me

It amazes me how i have lost touch with some of the very folks i thought were my good friends. I have always been that girl that gets along much better with guys than girls and I could ask some of my guy friends questions and sometimes get better answers. Those friends indeed platonic of course have disappeared since ive announced im with child. Uumm kinda fishy. I feel if u were a friend before and we were only friends whats changed? this just shows me who to deal with or not after this is all over. And the craziest thing is one of these particular friends has been around my entire childhood. But now that im off the market the two guy friends i thought i could depend on have vanished. What assholes?