Alone

I titled this alone because in my opinion It doesn't matter to me how great your family is, how great your friends are, how awesome strangers are to you, none of that really makes a difference because I feel like we are all alone anyway.

When your favorite family member lets you down time after time, and your bff pisses you off to no end, that only leaves one person to turn to...... yourself

Or when you marry your highschool sweetheart because he know's you oh so well,or have a boyfriend that you plan on marrying and then he calls you fat after you've had his babies? that only leaves one person to cry to, because your bff or family might think the same thing as him that only leaves one person to cry to.....yourself.

Or what about your person, because we all have a person. What about when your person doesnt understand you anymore and you're outgrowing each other, that only leaves one person......yourself

on the contray, I don't believe you can make it in this world alone, but I also know that we come in this world alone and leave alone for a reason. Because we are all we can really trust. You cannot soley trust anyone nowadays, not friends and not family. I'm my own person and I need to learn how to function by myself, without the attachment of others because eventually they will all let us down.

As much as people say they understand you and love and care for you, and they will be there for you, when you don't understand yourself or your decisions and you're fearful, those loving words coming from others go out the window when you most need them, I hate it when you trust someone when they say 'i'm here for you' and just when fear creeps in on you and you don't realize it and you react a defensive way, that very same person says 'well I won't say shit else to you, everything I say you shut me down' BOOM my point exactly, can't soley trust anyone, It doesn't matter who it is. If I react off of subconscious fear, why does it take a psychologist to realize it?

Because people have ego's and they really don't give a damn about you anyway. Its just what they're suppose to say.

Rules

I just want to know if anyone else has thought about this, When you meet someone and things are going great and you both feel good about the way the friendship is going, is there a time limit for things to evolve? Sex, saying 'I love you', moving in together, meeting each others families, getting married, having children?

I always thought things had a time limit, like six months to a year to have sex, we go dutch at dinner so he won't think i'm a gold digger, or I have to be home by a certain time so he won't think i'm a slut. I had all kinds of rules in my head long ago, but its like when you meet certain people or a certain person all of those silly rules go out of the window and things happen so naturally.

So I guess my question is has anyone ever had 'mandatory' rules and met someone and all those rules went flying out the window?

How well do you know people?

Why is it that when things are going ok, half way ok or bad in your life you have a rally of friends lined up to fight, fuss and bicker with you and for you. But when you are happy and content, those same friends are suddenly silent and kind of disappear? What happen to those same friends when you want to celebrate happy things and just laugh and have a good time?

What do you think?

They must not have been a friend to begin with

Eggs

I cannot believe I am about to talk about this, but I Love Scrambled Eggs!!!! Oh my God, I only want them in the morning, as a matter of fact in a few minutes, Its a cute guy in the cafeteria that makes them perfect, light and fluffy. I don't think he's here today, so the other guy will have to make them, and they'll probably be kinda crumbly, but still good enough to eat. I probably seem like a f.a. but oh well. I know it's a food out there, you just have to have if not everyday, almost everyday. ???????

Let me hear it!!!

I'm Ready

Ok i'm ready. I am ready for my changes, yesterday while shopping I saw this cute little chain with a charm tag that read 'Embrace Change' and on the back it says ' life is a gift, embrace it' and of course it has a small gold butterfly on it also. I love this necklace I so bought it. Everytime I doubt my decisions or the road i'm on i'll look down at my neck and 'embrace my changes' I get so comfortable with routine, even though I am a spur of the moment person, when major changes affect me I feel like i'm drowning. When all I really have to do is stand up and i'll be fine.

I have a lot of changes to come this year, you guys will be very surprised and hopefully happy for me.

Smooches

Just me thinking again

So I've been having some incidents lately, where I should be more vocal about my feelings. But I can't. I mean a person can make me mad, sad, disappointed, or all thee above and I will not express it.


Example: Last night me being a nice person I agreed to pick a certain somebody up from work at 12:30 after Midnight. Yes I do have to work, and I've been sleep already and honestly I just don't want to get out of bed at midnight to go anywhere. BUT!!! I was being nice and it wasn't going to kill me. So..... I get up, trample through 12 inches of snow, which is to my knees, to get to my car and have to find it buried under the snow, i'm a little aggravated to go pick up this certain tool. I get there and this one tells me 'oh well go back home, my guy is coming to pick me up, i'll just come to your house' ( but he asked me and even told me specific directions)

OMG!!! OMG!!! OMG!!!
I should have let his ass have it. But I didn't I just got frustrated and hung up.

What is wrong with me? why didn't I let him have it? i'm not scared, timid, or intimidated by him, so what is my problem?

I feel like a pussy.

Ready

When we wish and pray for things are we really sure we're ready for it?
I think I got one of my prayers and wishes and now stupid me is questioning myself. I am so fickle. I think when I ask for situations and things, I don't like to actually put in the work, I just want things handed down to me already put together. But!!! I asked for it so i'll let it flow and i'll be fine.


Are you really ready for the things you pray and wish for?

Ask A Man

Ladies ask your man or any man around you, does it make a difference in this day in age 2010!!! if a woman is domesticated or not. Does it really make or break a situation if a woman cannot cook hot water cornbread or turkey or a cake from scratch?

In my opinion, I think as long as you can care for your man when he is sick and you can make him chicken noodle soup out of a can and tea you're all good. And rub a little vapor rub on him, you're domesticated enough. I know there are other women who can do more but.......... is this really a requirement? a must have? a must learn? a dealbreaker for a man?

Color Blind

Last night the movie 'Something New ' came on and me and **** was watching it, well I was watching it and he was cooking steak and potatoes. Anyway, I was really deep in the movie, I'm starting to see things through clearer eyes. I never played with the idea of dating outside of my race, I really never considered it, but the guy in this movie was so cute, attractive and attentive, It made me think twice.



Of course we're all a little nervous to adventure because family can be harsh and opinionated, when it comes to interracial dating especially the older generation. But atleast I can imagine it, even if I never try it. Anyway me and my guy friend got on the subject of dating outside of your race, he has dated a puerto rican girl and a native american girl before. I didn't ask him details about it though. We conversated about the difference between black men and white men.



I said I think Caucasian men are move attentive, supportive and make things happen. When they find a woman they love and finally want to settle down, they make it happen and lock her down with the ring. On the other hand our African American men love us, support us and thats it. Our men can love us deeply to the end of time, but that does not mean he will seal deal and move to the next level and put a ring on it though. And thats unfortunate. I'M NOT TALKING ABOUT ALL A.A. MEN OR ALL CAUCASIAN ME EITHER.



With an opinion like this I guess i'm safe to date outside my race :)

Has anyone ever dated outside of your race, want to date outside your race, or would never go there? If so how was it?

Smile :)

When I look at a man the first thing I notice is his teeth and his shoes. He has to have straight white teeth in order for me to even take him seriously. If I see one crooked tooth, i'm out. Sorry. If I have to go to the dentist to keep up my pearly whites why doesn't he?

His shoes..... Man I am a sucka for a guy dressed cute in athletic wear or maybe a sean john fit and he has on a nice pair of clean tennis shoes, preferably nikes, i'm attracted. Puma's are cute too. My eyes go straight from the teeth to the shoes, and If their both ok, i'll say "hello".

Because these two traits are so important to me, I make it a priority to keep my son's teeth and shoes clean. He might one day meet a girl with the same 'must haves' as me and I'm preparing him. Not that I wouldn't otherwise, but as you see i'm extra picky when it comes to this.

What are the main things a man has to have physically to get your attention?

Miles Away

Ladies could you see yourself in a serious long distance relationship?
I've heard people on television talk about their experience, but i've never met anyone personally to ask this question. I'm wondering is it as hard as it seems, like when you are having a good day and you just want to jump in his arms, what do you do? of course you can call him, but is it like cheating yourself out of physical love? or the nights when you are just really in the mood and a phone call won't work? I guess it would be alright if it was only for a short while, but I can't imagine doing that for years. What do you think?

I actually tried it and it didn't work for me, we were better off as friends until he can move closer. It's just not for everyone.