No Bullies Allowed!!!

I thought of the days my son would get older and other little boys would want to fight him and try his patience. With losing Eimen and Brandon days like this are the hardest because this is definately their job. I remember once Brandon told me, Jackie don't worry about him I saw him fight before and he's good. Every since then I was good.

Until these last two weeks. Amarian has been having some issues with a couple of boys but one in particular thinks he is soo bad. He talks shit to Amarian, they go back and forth everyday. What should have been a riot in the cafeteria between the two boys when he took Amarian's sandwich wasnt. I told Amarian he should have destroyed the place and that boy, the only way to get a bully to leave you alone is to kick his ass!!!!

I don't want to create something in my son thats not normally him, but he can't be a victim. My son will not be a victim, I am putting him back in Karate ASAP. He says he's not scared of the boy, he said I told him if someone hits him then he kicks their ass, I guess I forgot to tell him if they take your sandwich you can kick their ass then too. I just want him to not be afraid of anyone, I want him to have a strong self esteem level, full of confidence and able to back it up.

It's one thing to ignore a bully, tease him back, talkback, talk slick, and roast him well now they call it flame. Thats all fine and dandy, but when someone has lost all respect and manners towards you it's time to make an example out of this fool.

So yeah, I did the adult thing and  I went and talked to his mother, I'm glad I did, because it seems like the day went better for them. She was apologetic for having such a ignorant son and she talked to him. But.........
 

Amarian will be back in Karate this week, he might not hold grudges but mama does damnit!!

Love

If you've ever found love, If you've ever experienced love, If you're currently in love, you're lucky, you're blessed, and hold on to it.


You might only get One love in your life, so feel it, experience it, accept it and cherish it.  Many of us don't get a second chance at love just an imitation.

Life

Yesterday my mom, sis, the kids and me all went to the Universoul Circus. I had never been and I must say I can’t believe I ever missed this. I had a blast!!!! I don’t know where to start. First its called the UniverSOUL for a reason, African American’s definitely have soul. They played the latest hip hop edited versions, they did the latest dances, everyone was involved. They had many acts and shows, arms twisting behind heads, ninjas, Brazilian women, African men, llamas, camels, elephants, tigers, horses, it was funnnn. I am so proud of myself for going because my mind was ready to roll but my body felt like it was weighed down by a ton of bricks. I’m going to start taking my iron pills again. Anyway, Kami was so scared when we arrived, she was holding on to me for dear life, the music was bumping and thumping and drums beating she was like ‘oh no’. And she did not like that clown, no no, she swatted her hand and told him ‘stop. As time went on she warmed up and we couldn’t sit her down, she was so into it she was dancing in her chair, closing her eyes feeling the music. My baby is a music head just like her brother. Amarian was so cool, observing and I knew when we got home he was going to try some of that shit out and he did, before bed I found him on the floor trying to put his arm behind his head. Boys will be boys. My little family is so funny, my son is now upset because he thinks I’m not his real mother. WTF? Kami went through Amarian’s wallet and stole $2, he’s screaming at her to give him his money back, she’s running away screaming ‘my money, my money’ all the while I’m suppose to be doing homework? How? A day in my life. If I haven’t told you lately I love you lots

Rated Z

My my myyyy, my my my my!!!!

I planned on coming home taking my bath and relaxing in the bed, curled up reading my new book. Well I did manage to accomplish most of that, except this book wasn't just a book I could read a few chapters from and resume tomorrow. Nope, this is a new book by Zane, chocolate flava 3.

My ideal evening after reading this book should have been me coming home alone to a nice bubble bath, a little cognac, candles, music and then my book and then maybe a little Juan. lmao!!!

Anyway, I read the first chapter and it was kind of slow and your regular erotic story line, so I gave up on that one and skipped to the very last story and OMG!!!!! my heart is racing, my liver is quivering and i'm all giddy and giggly. I have got to hide this book so my kids don't ever discover it. This is the meaning of EROTIC, I feel like a freak. lmao!!! Oh well

The story is so graphic and detailed, I can picture the scene like it's a movie. A HOT movie. lol
Yall have got to get this book, I need another freak to talk to about this (C.N.W.), Oh lawd!!!

Good Night and Sweet Dreams to Me!!!

( I can hear my sister now)

Break

The word break could mean alot of things, taking a break, you're broken, or something is broken. Well my relationship with my sister is broken. There was a huge assumption from her that keonia and I didn't care about our paternal family. She was very emotional and it caused a family uproar. My youngest sister decided to express her feelings about our gripes and I asked her to explain herself, she wouldn't. Like she always does, she'll go so far then realize it's taking a different turn, then she'll change the subject.I didn't want her to change the subject, you started a status about you're sick of your sisters arguing and immature was in the sentence, explain to me little girl just what you mean. She wouldn't but she was being a smart alleck and it pissed me off so bad, because I am 15 years older than her, there is no way I will stand to be talked back to, or smart mouthed to from a little girl. She was being a bitch, she is most of the time a bitch, and i called her a bitch.

Older sis didn't like that, but she didnt' say a word to our little sister who i felt was smart mouthing me. But thats ok, I apologized for calling her a bitch, but I meant everything else I said about not being her friend.I am taking a break. I am taking a break from situations that bring me heartache, headaches, worry, sadness, madness, and confusion. I am taking a break from my family. Regardless of who is at fault, I talked face to face with my big sis, we argued, screamed, and at the end kiss and made up. Thats all I needed before I closed the door to our old relationship.

As far as my little sister, I wish her all the best in life. I will not be an immediate part of her growing up. Once someone can talk to you that way and feel no remorse, they have loss respect and care, and I refuse to be around for that.My children are enough, the offspring i bore are enough to get me up and going in life. My son and my daughter are enough to make me happy. Really they are all I need.