Wassup

Long time writing with ya. I've been doing good still not putting up with nobody's bullshit. I removed myself from my the place i was employed for most of my career. And I feel good about it!!!! When I tell you I had enough of that sneak bullying, backstabbing, negative, evil and vindictive shit BELIEVE ME!!! If you really know me, you've rarely saw me get violent and thats truly me. I am rarely physical first off i'm too old for that shit nowadays but even back then I was the same. But babeeeee when I have had enough and i've taken all I could; back the fuck up. That manager made me so mad, everyday constantly nick picking at me. Friday the 13th she called me in her office to reprimand me about my behavior ( which had lately been straight silence, just looking at these ghetto, ratchet, illiterate ass women including her) i let that bitch have it!!!!! I held back some then the bitch said something I couldn't hear. Well I heard her I just wanted her to repeat it. I didn't notice I had pulled that hair bonnet off and scooted closer to hear her until I read her body language. She kind of looked like she was unsure of me and she slightly moved back. I almost caught a case yall!!! I was gonna leap on that bitch like a lion on his prey. I had enough of busting my ass in this unorganized unappreciative place. The mature part of me forced me to think twice, regroup, keep calm and think fast and efficiently. I got up, boxed all my things, never to be seen again. When life is unfair to me, i can deal, when life slaps me, i slap back, when reality trips me, i fall and get back up, that bitch must not know how strong I am!!! If she didn't now she do!!! If I haven't said it lately I love you and me😊

Random feelings

Natural Woman

The funniest things happened today. For the longest time i have been wearing foundation. It makes me feel so pretty and it somewhat hides my flaws.

As a teenager I guess I tried to care for my skin but i am just one of those people it flaw full skin.

So today my sister was outside honking the horn for me like a crazy bat, and i ran out without putting my makeup on. A major disaster in my book but we had already pulled off so i had to go as is.

But i felt so naked, exposed, just not pretty so i put some eyeliner on, i felt a little better.
The funniest thing is as naked and self conscious as i felt, i got so many smiles, friendly gazes, and even a couple discounts. Wtw?

Then i saw an old guy friend and i couldnt get him to shut up. He kept complimenting me and smiling. He kept saying; "you look good, man u look nice, you're working out is working for you"

silly me said "boy shut up i dont even have on no makeup"
He looked like "so, i dont like all that anyway"
it's not about pleasing anyone or trying to hide something it's what make you feel good that can either help you or pacify you.
Masking my flaws pacified me, it made me feel a certain way other than accept my natural beauty.

Im still growing though

Maybe I like a bed hog

I complained yesterday that when i woke up Kami was over me to the point my forehead was touching the wall. But i must admit i slept pretty good. LoL

So tonight I was sleeping pretty good again, but I keep waking up, opening one eye looking at her. She is actually not being a bed hog, i have plenty of room. She's on the other side of the bed all stretched out. I guess i've gotten so used to being smothered I can't take it when i'm not?

Okay let me try this sleep thing "one mo gen"

BflyKisses

Woman

It's interesting that since I have been on the market guys are coming from everywhere making it clear they are interested in me. Thats nice and flattering but what ever happen to approaching me and seeing whats up? Volunteering to go to lunch together, asking to call me etc...

I will say I haven't had anyone disrespect me but these guys nowadays are pussy's.
One guy told me that men appear to be scared of me, not that I'm mean it just looks like I won't take no shit.

I say if you 're not on any bullshit you'll see no fear in me, you'll see a potential wife and you'll go for it.

I am a woman. Not a girl.(when it comes to men) I am a mother and I come with great responsibilities, I have baggage, I have emotional luggage, a carry on bag of fear, a roll on bag of hope and a purse full of Love.

So if a man is interested in me he has to be strong in every sense of the word. He has to be prepared, willing, and have no problem with helping me unpack that heavy load and glad to help me put it all away and start anew.

Getting back to me

I'm at it again. Valentine's Day

Kim

Happy Birthday Kim!!!

A true friend for 8 years she has been. Today is your day girl do something different and/or out of the ordinary because you deserve it.

Whatever you do even if it's just laying in your big comfy bed eating junk food,enjoy it.

With Love
Your SisterFriend

Happy New Year!!!!!

I brought the new year in happy. I started off sipping on tequila in front of the fireplace, with my mom, sis and the rug rats. I ended up at my dear cousin's house having even more fun.

We danced,laughed our ass off,told jokes and just had a good time. I've been holding a cry in for some weeks now and it came out yesterday while in the car with my sister. I just reflected on the bad for a quick second, I let it out and that was it!!

Anyway I kissed my babies for the new year I love them infinity, I love my family, my friends, even the douchbags of 2012.

My New Year's Resolution 2013 is
"WALK AWAY"
When my sanity is on the line
When I feel heartache, disrespected,unloved
If I could possible say the wrong thing
When enough is just enough

I will walk away!!
(At first)