Work it Out

Throughout my life i'd dibble and dabble with exercise since high school, but I've never really taken it that serious, because I felt I didn't need to exercise. Until Now. I am not happy with my body changes, but i'm not down and out about it either. I hide, stuff and bandage the parts not meant to be seen through my shirt, but I want to do something about it, but I don't want to do the work. If I haven't said it enough, I absolutely HATE working out!!!!

After being asked by Tara to join her and a personal trainer I agreed. Why??????? last friday would've been my first session but I got sick. I had been thinking about it all day long and literally made myself sick. Didn't go. So this week i'm like 'yeah yeah i'll definately be there this friday' Friday was so long away I didnt think about it. Until friday morning, I felt the anxiety building all day, all day I said to myself " screw it, i'm not going". I'm out of shape so the last thing I want to do is be huffing and puffing, sweating and crying and feeling totally wiped out in front of a stranger.

After much shit was talked to me, I went and yes I huffed, puffed, sweat, wanted to cry, felt totally wiped out, my chest was burning, my throat was burning, I felt bad. Right now the area right about my knees are killing me because of the lunges he had us do. Even my ass hurts. My shoulder hurts, I just feel bad; sore all over.

I have been laughing at my pain though, all day i've been complaining to my mom and Keonia about how hard I worked out and how sore my body is to the point Keonia just said "shut the fuck up!!!!
Of course I laughed, but what does she know she hasn't worked out before, how does she know how I feel?
Anyway when she does a major workout like me maybe she'll understand. Me on the other hand; made an appointment to go back to the personal trainer next sunday,I swear to myself if I say i'm going, GO!! But if my body parts are still in pain next week I might not ever see the inside of a gym again.